Tasting All My Mates by Alexis Dee

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"Is there something wrong between you two?" She asked again, just to clarify her question. At first, she was

confused, and now she is shocked.

"Things are okay," I lied, fixing my hair and gulping with a smile on my lips. The smile wasn't genuine; I was trying

not to be awkward with her.

"Just okay? I don't want to force you into talking about anything, but I noticed something about you two. I noticed

the spark is missing from your relationship," she said as she pouted sadly while watching my face.

"It is because I have lost my spark," I said with a weak smile plastered across my lips.

"Well, at least you ever had a spark. Look at me, I have only suffered all this time." She claimed when probably

talking about her relationship.

"What happened? Are things not okay between you two?" I asked, remembering what Lazio had told me. I didn't

want to directly talk about the differences they have because of me, but I wanted her to say it herself.

"Things are not going so well. I don't know if Lazio has told you anything or not, but things have been pretty rough

between us from the day we married," she uttered under her breath, looking all sad. I felt hurt watching her suffer

so much.

"Why?" I asked and leaned back in the chair.

"Because of you!" she stated, and silence took over us. We shared a silent glance, and then she lowered her eyes.

"I should have known that would happen," she sighed.

"I am so sorry. I didn't know he would do that. But I promise you, Christina, I have not even stayed in contact with

him," I swore to her, feeling my heart pound in my chest.

"I know. It’s just that I don't know what to do anymore. I tried so hard to make it work for the first year but now—,"

she paused when confusing me with her confession.

"Now? Now what?" I inquired, watching her pout and let out a sigh of exhaustion.

"Now I don't think I can make another effort. How long can I even hold him back? The heart wants what it wants,"

she shrugged her shoulders, taking a big sip from her wineglass.

"I don't know what to say. Do you want me to talk to him about you?" I asked, hoping maybe I could do something

for her.

"Enya! I don't think that would work. I wanted him to realize my love and accept me. My ego will not tolerate me

making his crush beg him to give me a chance. Besides, I suffered so much that now I don't even feel any pain. I

got used to it," she said, with not much emotion on display.

I was staring at her and realizing she was not lying. She looked like someone who tried her best, but it didn't work

out for her.

"So, what is your plan now?" I asked her because I, too, wasn't happy in my marriage. She still had a wolf with her,

but I didn't have anything. So I wasn't sure how my life would turn out after I demanded separation from Lazio.

"We have been talking about separation for some time now. I think in a month or two, we will finalize it," she said

casually. "I might have to ask Lazio to take me in his pack. Would you mind if that happened?" She looked like she

was requesting me.

Hearing her surprised me. I used to be so strong and in command, what happened to me taking decisions for

myself?

Look at her, and then look at me. The thought of leaving Lazio had not crossed my mind until tonight, and that too

because of her.

"I am surprised." I grabbed the wine glass and took a sip from it.

"We have to make firm decisions sometimes," she confessed. "I am sorry, Enya, for ignoring you yesterday. I

couldn't look at you and believe Maynard isn't looking at you as well. It was just painful for me, but now I

understand. It is not even your fault. I could tell you are not living your best life yourself." She whispered in a sad

tone.

"You didn't answer me. Would you mind if I came to stay here?" She asked again, and this time I put the glass down

to hold her hand to comfort her.

"You can be a part of this pack, and that will only bring joy to me." I gave her a soothing smile. It was nice to have

someone I could share a word with. Nobody has really wanted to hear me these days, so I kind of found a blessing

in her company.

"Lazio calls me his sister," she added. "I know it is weird to talk about it, but he has been a better brother than

Zander. Zander lost his path and pretty much used me to hide his crimes and sins." She looked sad when

remembering her brother.

"That seems like ages ago," I uttered.

"Do you still miss him?" she asked, making me raise my head to look her in the eye.

"Thiago?" She mentioned him by name this time. I steadily lowered my face and scratched a T on the back of my

hand with my fingernail.

"I do," I confessed.

"He truly was in love with you," she too confirmed there could be no one like him. I just couldn't talk about him with

anyone. He seemed to be my secret. I couldn't tell anyone about him.

"How do you know Valerie?" Instead of continuing to talk about someone, I questioned her; I couldn't even share his

thoughts with anyone.

"Oh! I know her from the times she and Lazio would visit us. I was pretty sad when Lazio told me you didn't want to

visit us, but then I understood you were not in a place to celebrate or enjoy anything." She explained everything to

me in those few sentences.

Lazio didn't take me to her place because he feared I would ruin their relationship. He just didn't want to take me

anywhere.